I know I’m skinny but I’m having really bad imagery and confrontation issues. Most people will not understand it because they are not me, but its not really making me feel good. I just went on a diet my mom wanted me to try and its going okay. I keep feeling hungrier each day but I feel like its not doing anything. I know my body better than anyone, and when I say I’ve developed a small pudge they think “What the hell you’re crazy.” But I’m not. I know my body, and its not looked like this to me. I’ve felt my pants grow tighter, my shirts still fit because I’m small in the chest area, but my waistline is bigger. I haven’t gone through the freshman 15 but I have gained some weight from school. I guess I need to eat better, it was all that darn Taco Bell. Eww. But hopefully with me doing this diet I will grow to appreciate my pudge if it doesn’t go away. Mom says that bodies shift and maybe my time has come to go up another pants size. Ehhh. I just didn’t want to face this truth and I feel bad I’ve let myself get this pudgy… Even my mom has noticed it.
Hopefully this is not an on-set of anorexia. Probably not, but I don’t want my self-esteem about my body to get out of hand. BLAH.
Maybe if my professor feels sorry for us he will make the exam easier. D: